And here it is Tuesday again, and as promised, Total Gratitude Tuesday has returned.
I’ll be honest – it’s been rough keeping up with my gratitude practice lately. The last few months have been a genuine struggle overall, and as anyone with depression knows, it’s rough to keep up healthy practices when depression takes over. While writing is sometimes therapeutic, I’ve found that the pressure of finding a positive spin to put on things has paralyzed me into a kind of long-term writer’s block. That’s a limitation that I’ve put on myself but it’s also because I know that I don’t have any particular interest in writing a blog that’s just a diary of depression, nor would I have any interest in reading one. I’m the girl that likes looking for (and hopefully finding) the silver lining, not just the clouds. It’s the cruelest irony that depression takes away your motivation and energy to do the very things that would help to alleviate some of the symptoms.
And when you add recent events across our nation and the world to the mix, the struggle becomes even more difficult. I have never been someone who could build any armor around my heart and I have a really hard time tuning out the misery of others which means that there are times when the weight is too much to bear. It’s difficult to keep a positive outlook when all you see around you are people being cruel to one another and on such a grand scale. I try to bear in mind that the world has always been a cruel place in some ways, but with those silver linings in human form to give us hope.
Still, there are silver linings even if they are difficult to find sometimes. And I am ever grateful for the love and support of friends and family, as they do make even hard times easier to bear. I am especially grateful for those who understand my need to retreat to my spiritual blanket fort and don’t get irritated with me over it.
And a big “thank you” to my husband for always being understanding about my need to retreat when life gets overwhelming. This photo was taken on a hike we took in Yellow Springs to get away for a few minutes after a particularly rough few days. I love that he “gets” me even when I make no sense to myself.
And on to the gratitude list – this is at the top for the moment. My husband and I went to see Duran Duran and Chic live last Tuesday in Clarkston, Michigan. First of all, if you’ve never been to Clarkston, it’s a neat little town to check out. The main street reminds me a lot of my hometown but because it’s just outside of Detroit, Clarkston is jumpin’. There are some great restaurants and gorgeous buildings to check out and lots of neat little boutiques and such. We stopped at Union Woodshop for some of the best barbeque I’ve ever had. (Yeah, in Michigan! Who’d have thunk?) And then on to the show. I have waited to see Duran Duran my whole life. I mean, it really was a check on the ol’ bucket list. And the fact that Chic opened for them? Absolute perfection. I am an unapologetic fan of disco. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with music for the sake of dancing and feeling good, and nobody does it better than Chic. And they’re just as good as they were in the 70s and 80s. And Duran Duran – what can I say? They lived up to every single expectation in every way. They still have the same energy and vibe and the music is as great as ever. I missed Nick Rhodes not being there, but even so, it was perfection. And a quick getaway with my husband is always good medicine.
This is the KEEP Collective design I wore to the concert. I’m pretty sure the guys could see it from my spot out on the lawn. 😉
On the professional front – it’s been a slow couple of months with KEEP Collective, which is pretty natural in the summer. Everyone’s got plans, myself included, so it’s hard to live up to the stellar month I had in May, but even so I just found out that I earned Level 1 Consistency Club (qualifying 4 of my first 6 months with KEEP) and will get a $75 product credit and recognition at Hoopla (our conference) which is in just a couple of weeks!
Had to take this photo at an angle because of the glare in my bright orange kitchen!
And thank you to my best friend Amanda for this beautiful gift and also for being another person who understands and supports me when things get rough.
And odd as it sounds, I’m really thankful for the whole Pokemon Go craze. Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve seen more kids out on bikes than I have in the last fifteen years and my own grown kids have met people all over the place and had conversations and gotten out in the fresh air and explored our city – all good things in my book. Pokemon fans have caught a lot of shit online from people who I guess have nothing better to do than criticize other people for their hobbies, but to me, it seems like something that’s bringing people together in a fun way, and where’s the harm in that? I should think with everything that’s going on in the world right now, people would see it as a good thing.
Onward and upward, right? One foot in front of the other and looking forward to a good week.
Much love. – Mama Bear